#i can't just beat the shit out of someone and call it a day. thats not an 'arc'

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I'm actually so scared of creative writing 😭😭 and this is exactly what I've been worrying about! I just have no ideas and I'm working myself up and aughhhjhhhhhhh idk how to write

[with-my-calamitous-love]

what should’ve been you

t. todoroki x reader (kind of). for his birthday <3

after paying a visit to touya’s grave on his birthday years after his passing, you meet someone unexpectedly. angst/comfort @crushmeeren @suksatoru

also, based off of this post here

inspired by bigger than the whole sky

it had been years since touya's life had slipped out of your grasp, from beneath the high-tech glass chamber that was nothing more than a futile attempt to save his life. an almost admirable attempt from his father, but ultimately pointless, considering how much of his life had already wasted away into ashes.

even in the aftermath, no words appear to you, kneeling on the soft grass in front of his headstone.

touya todoroki, it simply says. no loving messages, no heartfelt anecdotes, just the name that had been stolen from him in his childhood. it's almost as if his family had tried to return him the thing he chose to rid himself off.

his sister probably chose the location- 5 minutes away from their household, just nearby a shallow pond. she likely thought about making it accessible to her parents and brothers, though whether or not they took advantage of the location is unknown to everyone. this time of winter touya would have loved- the frost blanketing the water, snow glistening through the sky, but his family probably didn't know that when they chose the spot.

the simple though has salt streaming out your eyes, looking to the barren stone that marks his final resting place. if touya were here, he'd scoff, tell you that there's "nothing to cry about," and pull you into his arms. he'd probably give you his jacket, reminding you of his immunity to the cold and your shit immune system. if he were here, he'd be more than just a short time, more than all the love in the world you could describe.

but somehow, in someway, it's all over, all out to sea.

though, you're not as alone as you may believe. funny how two people can stand meters away from one another, mourn the same person, and still feel worlds away.

shouto thinks its funny, at least. though he can't find much humor in this situation- he never could.

you turn your head, acknowledging touya's little brother. its shocking to see anyone visit this grave. it's even more shocking that its the family who touya believed hated him.

theres a beat of silence between the two of you, though the understanding is there. every single thing to come has turned into ashes.

you expect questions: "who are you? why are you here? did you love him? can you tell me what you loved about him, so i can know him too?"

but shouto, now a young adult, who has had time to think but never fully heal, skips the interview. instead he walks towards you, two-toned eyes asking for permission before he sits next to you.

"...he talked about you."

"...did he?"

"a lot." he almost chuckles.

"thats... surprisingly sweet of him." you hum, noticing the snow, crestfallen on his headstone. you want to reach in, to ask if he's cold, though you know he'd probably call you an idiot for worrying and proceed to worry more about you.

and the fact that shouto knows you- maybe not your name, or your age, but knows that you had held a place in touya's life, speaks volumes.

then you look at shouto- the perfect one, the one endeavour had abused and destroyed everything over. you know that look in his eyes, wanting to know what could have been, what he could have been, if he had touya. he's a pro-hero, a healed person, a good person, and at the end of the day, he's still a little kid needing his big brother.

"...i'm never going to meet him." he whispers to himself, small words hitting so huge.

you were blessed with meeting touya- the warm, loving, asshole-ish idiot that ultimately just craved love. you had seen of glimpse of what could have been, and for the rest of your life, you'd be haunted by gratefulness, knowing you had been one of the few people touya todoroki revealed himself to, truly and unconditionally.

shouto, however, didn't have that. and it shows in his eyes, in his hands, in his heart.

words fail, but your hand on his shoulder isn't lost on him. your tears spill and his eyes screw shut, neither knowing what to say, but finding solace in the silence.

touya was the loss of your life, an absence that'll haunt you forever. he's a burning memory, his tattoo kisses all over your heart, and shouto? he's got so much to pine about, so much to live without. he was years too late to save what could have been. you both were. you all were.

then, shouto says the unthinkable: "i named my son after him."

you blink, not expecting that, turning to face him. there isn't a ghost of a lie in his eyes, and that's enough to piece it together for you.

he immediately goes to defend himself, realizing what it sounds like- that he was trying to honor a horrible person, a villain.

"i just... i wanted to remember him." a tear slips down his cheek, but he doesn't care. "i wanted to save his name."

he waits for you to answer, expecting anger, or hurt, or simple disbelief. but touya would be proud of how easily you surprise people, probably smiling to himself from wherever he is.

"that's beautiful, shouto." you smile, and so does he.

"you think?" he tries to confirm, though you both laugh a little, knowing that it is, indeed, a beautiful act. so you talk and sit together. he listens to memories of touya, reconciling an image of him in his mind: touya, who loves winter. touya, who loves soba and hates waking up too early in the morning. touya, who always shows up late to every family gathering and acts like a teasing piece of shit to all his siblings, but who would burn down the world for them. touya, who would have been everything. who should have been.

touya, who was everything to you in the short time he was there.

touya, but this time shouto's son, being the person the part of him that could be saved.

[literallythegrabber]

Yo , can you do the famous reader one but with characters ¿? Sorry if I was not clear :p

my bad, it's not ur fault I was being dumb. I'm also writing this at 3:00 am, after procrastinating for a week, so sorry for any typos in advance. enjoy!

Finney

Will probably keep his distance from u.

Will admire u from afar, kinda like how he was with Donna, just a bit more extreme since ur famous.

This boy will just stare at you from across the room. No shame whatsoever. Can't hold eye contact for shit tho, and easily flustered.

Since ur famous, I'd imagine you'd be like a child act or actress, so Finney would go to the movie theatre every Friday with Robin or Gwen to see ur movies.

(just remembered how Robin is 6 feet under rn, I'm imagining Finney carrying a pile of bones in a bucket labeled "Robin" to the movies, LMAO, anyways...)

Since he's short on cash (I headcanon he's broke af, I mean he's 13) he'll hideout in the bathroom once ur movies over, then wait for the next audience to come and watch it, then sneak into that booth so he can watch it again. Like, mf u could just go home? But he's committed to u.

When yall got together, the whole school was SHOOK, the people were pondering over yall for days.

You'd have to reassure him a lot. He gets insecure a lot by ur status and what people say.

But Robin will beat the haters up!😁

Robin

will def beat up all ur haters, whether yall are dating or not.

He'll try to act non-chalant and tough around you when he's literally freaking out the moment u walk into the room.

Imagine him just locking eyes with u while he's beating up some kid, just holding eye contact mid punch cause he thinks it makes him look cool.

And ur just like "😐".

Like I said with Finney, he'll go to the movie theatre EVERYDAY to watch ur movies instead of studying.

He just ignores doing it cause homework's for losers.

Like aren't u failing math?

U get scary dog privileges once yall start dating. He's always staring people down when they look at you for too long, he's super protective.

Yall would def be a power couple.

Bruce

He fangirls over u.

Thats it, that's all I have to say.

He ain't a stalker, but is 100% ur biggest fan.

Will flirt with u, get u small gifts, and invite u to his baseball games.

Will definitely serenade u with a guitar in the middle of the hallway, then laugh when u get embarrassed.

He brags to his friends about u all the time.

Nobody's surprised when yall start dating.

The popular boy and the movie star, it was a match made in heaven.

Like with Robin, yall would be a power couple.

Vance

He's literally ur biggest hater, polar opposite of Bruce.

He doesn't really hate u, he's just trying to deny his feelings for u by becoming ur mortal enemy.

He's trying to convince himself he doesn't like you, even tho he thinks about u (and pinball) all day.

Teases u, calls u names, goes out of his way to ruin ur day, he's honestly a menace.

"Vance! Did you see y/n's new movie? It's so cool!" "She looks like a seahorse be fr." "😟"

Vance is just insecure, with his dirty reputation, it's hard for him to believe someone like you would want someone like him.

He's unsure of how to process his emotions correctly, so he just bottles them up. Then imagine yall get into an argument, then all his pent-up feelings come pouring out in an aggressive confession, then yall get together.

The world was SHOOK, again.

Nobody could connect the dots, the goofy "bad boy" dating the movie star? Nobody predicted it.

He keeps his affection under the radar, wouldn't want to ruin his reputation.

He claims ur turning him into a "softie", but he's totally whipped for u.

Scary dog privileges, too.

[velvetvexations]

My commentary on the whole "if dipper is transmasc mable is a terf" thing is that dipper and Mabel are 12 years old and exist in a cartoon set in 2012. Mable does not know what a terf is. Mabel is 12 years old, 12 year Olds can't be terfs. If her actions persisted into adulthood yeah she'd be transphobic but she is a cartoon character who can never age. I don't look at a real life 12 year old saying transphobic things and think they're a terf, because that's stupid. I'm sure if this character could have the intricacies of transphobia explained to her she'd understand her actions were wrong, but she can't, because she's a twelve year old from a cartoon that stopped airing in 2016.

the anon who pointed out it's exactly the same with Chihiro is so gigabrained

cannot get over how much some transfems get mad at transmascs for doing the same shit transfems do. "transmascs are obsessed with headcanoning characters as transmasc even when it makes no sense" coming from the "estrogen would save her" crowd is, maddening

well thanks to epistemological standpoint trans women will always have a deeper and more complex relationship to gender

Its literally nauseating and disgusting listening to - say that trans mascs don't face the same rate of SA as trans fems or that we're lying about the statistics of the violence against us

I know anon <3

whats really funny about the whole "mabel would be transphobic" thing is that she would be transphobic regardless. saying that someone isn't a man cuz they're too girly is transphobic. like just straight up. it's not like. the worst form of transphobia ever. but it's like how telling a guy that he throws like a girl is still sexist regardless. and you know what? mabel is 12. she's a child. so what if she's a little bit mean? the whole thing is just so stupid because it's trying to make a headcanon thats relatively completely innocent seem problematic. and idk if i really want that sort of precedent to be set around trans headcanons. anyways i hope ur having a good day ^^

I keep saying this but it's wild how the "trans men are so comfortable with being girls and calling themselves girls" crowd is dogmatic that a twelve year old girl misgendering a twelve year old trans boy is committing the worst possible crime against him.

- i'm sorry but is this person implying that in order to not be discriminated against trans men should stop being men or is it something out of my fucked-up head?

Unintentionally, yes.

Idk if you saw the Twitter blahaj drama but like, some trf’s loose their minds if trans men also like a stuffed animal but god fucking forbid we also have transmasc headcanons like idk it’s always the same people doing this shit too at this point I think they just hate any other kind of trans person and just post-hoc rationalize it whenever there’s a “”tme”” being happy

Correct! And then transmasc TRFs are like "so true queen, don't these sissies know that being a man is all about suffering."

Potentially hot take but if you really REALLY can't find a trans actor to play your trans character I would VASTLY prefer a cis actor of the character's actual gender not their ASAB. "But anon, what if they're early transition?" Plenty of cis people are clocky, that's a very common pushback against TERF bullshit; that they're applying such a narrow standard of gender presentation that even cis people get caught up in it. Makeup exists. Prosthetics exist. Good actors who can make you believe they're fucking trans exist.

Yeah! Just look at the fantastic job Demi Bennett does playing Rhea Ripley!

'transandro dudes are stupid cause they say androphobia is bad but they're too scared to go up to the buffest gym dude and ask for his testosterone supply' are you stupid on purpose. it's not because he's a man it's because he's cis and a lot of cis people are SO down to beat up anyone they suspect might be a trans person. and a pre t trans dude asking for testosterone when the gym guy perceives said trans dude as a woman is DEFINITELY gonna get clocked and then be at risk of getting injured. can we please bring back thinking with our brains

transmasc and transfem TRFs are both so desperate to see themselves as having places in society identical to cis men and cis women and it's not going to fucking work out any time soon

Now personally I adore all the aesthetic posts and they give me a ton of material for my technology tag sooo thank you 4 reblogging so many dope gifs ^^

Thank you!

Maybe one day a week where the only messages people are allowed to send are fawning/simping/lusting after you idk lmao

that IS half my inbox already lol

weird thing but as a kid i was labeled tomboy so often i would consider my gender as a kid to BE tomboy. but when i decided to start being just a boy (trans boy) instead everyone acted like it was something out of left field and that there was "no proof" that i was trans (keep in mind this is like 2014-ish. i am still 99.9% sure i was the first ever person to come out as not cis at my school). like... what the hell do you mean "no proof"?? you literally spent my childhood calling me a tomboy and, after my sister started walking and talking, pointing out how much of a girly girl i WASNT compared to her.

the idea of cis people wanting "proof" is so weird

i like ur aesthetic posts tho, they make me happy also why tf r they complaining about aesthetic posts on tumblr of all places lol

literallyyyyy

Now personally I adore all the aesthetic posts and they give me a ton of material for my technology tag sooo thank you 4 reblogging so many dope gifs ^^

You're welcome!

[lookoutjoe]

now this is a song for all of yall that ever had one of them days you know where you wake up with a b52 hangover and your woman is whopping you on the side of your head with a pillow that feels like a baseball bat and she's saying IF YOU STAY OUT DRUNK WITH THOSE PEOPLE YOU CALL YOUR FRIENDS UNTIL FIVE O CLOCK IN THE MORNING ONE MORE TIME I AM GOING HIT MY ASS ON DOWN THE ROAD. yes good morning dear. so you go into the backyard and put the garden hose over the top of your head. going oh god oh god. and you look over and your dog… has died. and i mean, this is a fine bird, man, he can find birds (idk what he's saying here sorry) he can find birds in queens, you know? so you hop in your short (?) and you're beating it for the welfare office right and you see in the rear view window the repro man coming. thats going to cop your car. you just lucked out of that. anyways, down at the place where you get your cheque you got to face one of them poverty pimps right. and she's saying (incoherent mumbling) yes m'am of course oh no of course i would never do anything like that yes thank you very much. bitch. i mean its bad enough that you got to go ask(?) someone 'cause you can't find no job least ways they could teach you to put a little dignity you know what i mean? anyway you figure its time to go back to the house and make things right with your woman. well. in front of your house is a sheriff's car. and there is a man who says. so. andrew j thompson is that you? yes, uh, i have a writ here from shelby county tennessee says you owe three and a half months back alimony on your first wife plus uh penalties and child support. uh. you have ten days to give me, uh… yeah uh 27 hundred thousand dollars or you're going to jail. OW! i mean that's some RUDE SHIT you know what i'm saying? so about this time you just say FUCK IT. and go on down to your favourite watering hole and you crawl up the side of and down into the middle of. and proceed to drown in a bottle of OLD. CROW. BOURBON. DRINKING. WHISKEY. YES. i mean we don't want the fancy stuff man we want to get the job done. you ain't carrying no weapons so you know you ain't gonna get into any trouble, right? as long as you remember how to RUN. it only takes you an hour and half before you start seriously going (slurring) ahhh can i have another one? i dont have i think ive had too much drink… what do you. mannnn. what do you mean man. mannnnn. i had a terrible day! (returns to normal voice) bartender's saying "i dont care if its only ten oclock its last call for you". about this time, this fine, i mean super fine foxy looking woman with the long legs and the hair down to here, flapping her baby blues comes STROLLING by. and you say, OW! and you sobers right quick, right. but having failed the third grade you say something to the effect of: "Are, uh, um. You, uh?" what you really wanna say is, uh, "hey baby. hey why dont you come over and have a drink with me. you alright? yeah, ain't nothing to it. oh, you're just passing through town? mhm. oh, he did? with twenty dollars? in las vegas? well how did you get- no, i ain't gonna ask that. uh, i'm just passing through myself, you know. anyway. sit down and lets you know get right. yo, okay. my, youre fine looking darling. ohh. ohh! hey what'd you say your name was again, yeah?" and this is the song that you wish was playing on the jukebox. cause it's got your whole story. ♬ I was lonesome as I could be...

[imlivinginyourtrashcan]

Hi hello and howdy

Since I can't contain my thoughts here's all the "Mirage" logicistics. Basically they either swap or enhance ones personality, heres a few examples:

Mirage Lenore is way more looney and impulsive, with a practically nonexistant off switch having to be dragged off screaming before she sets anything on fire, her group mainly sticks with her for fear of their own lives and she and Annabel are ALLOWED TO BE GAY!!! HOORAY!!! They still have the pretend to hate each other thing but thats mainly due to Annabel's paranoia

Mirage Duke is a shit magician who constantly looses parts of his tricks, he's also like WAYYY too overdramatic, the kinda mf to fall over if you steal his chip,

"MY CHIP!!"

"Its... its just a crisp.."

"I WAS GOING TO EAT THAT!"

"Oh my god..."

So yeah, pathetic cringefail looser LMFAO, but he is the kinda person to pull a "OMG MY BEST FRIEND! MOVE!" And shove whoever out of his way

Mirage Pluto is if you took a wet cat and made him a golden retriever. He's very hyperactive, social, easily distracted. Mf is like "wanna hear abt my hyperfixations?!" Talks and doesn't wait for an answer a neat thing i did with some characters Mirage's is i inverted stuff abt them like hair, emblems, all that. He still thinks M! Duke's magic is cool

Mirage Berenice is a feral little creature, constantly biting or nibbling on things (mainly Eulalies arm, or her own. I dont think chewlery exists in the victorian era). She's also the queen of being unhinged, in spectre form shes somewhat normal at least. For the most part she's in her own world

Mirage Eulalie is the mean autistic, less into creepy/old things n thinks their lame and/or weird. She's the one dragging Berenice around and keeping the gang from falling apart. Her and M! Morella really out here sharing the only group braincell, shes also blunt as fuck and wont hesitate to tell you you look bad. I wanted to lean more into the japanese part of her character so she just kinda- speaks more of it now (lol idk how else to explain it)

Mirage Morella, like M! Eulalie, is a mean autistic. She's less emotional, and more of "I dont give a damn just get me out of here.", sticks with whatever group she's feelin that day tbh. Won't tell you you look bad, will probably just call you a dumbass and leave

Mirage Annabel is kinda like regular Annabel but without the "Life is like chess" mentality. So more jumpy, kinda a walking talking mental breakdown waiting to happen. Excess paranoia and increase of hallucinations cus pookie and I decided we aren't giving her a break

Mirage Prospero is no longer fancy and polite, he is sopping wet germaphobic wet cat. He will go through great lengths to avoid disease, faints around blood and puke, screams at the sight of his own rats (or just rats/bugs in general), actively raising his and Annabel's blood pressure with how scardy he is.

Mirage Montresor is imo the funniest one cuz he's just a polite little gentleman, doin all the chivalry shit like opening doors, pushing chairs in and out, saying his pleases/thank yous/welcomes, he's even calling everyone "Sir" and "Ma'am". He's still an asshole, but you really gotta provoke him to see that

Tbh, I didn't think much abt Mirage Will since Will to me is kinda just there as Monty's lackey who gets kicked around. SO he's less of a pushover, more demanding, up and refuses what people tell him, bullies M! Monty, he tried bullying M! Ada and M! Morella but bro got his ass kicked. On top of it, he's unfortunately more sexist and stubborn. No more people pleasing ig ��‍♀️

Finally, Mirage Ada. What I wanted to do for her is have her be an absolute girlboss who is always serving 100% of the time. Everything she does is her choice and for her and her friends, and and and shes Aroace too, pretty chill when she has to reject someone just like:

"Hey i like u"

"Oh! I don't feel the same but we can still be friends?"

"Ok"

EPIC HIGH FIVE

She also beat M! Will up, good for her

So uh, yeah! Thats all i got. If you have questions, feel free to comment or ask in the askbox. :)

[streamdotpng]

I'm kinda surprised that no one's asked much about the motherfucker au. There's no official name for this au so I'll just keep calling it that. It's kind of a long one, but i really like the premise of it. How long after first sleeping with each other does wenclair start seriously dating? What kinda pushes them in the right direction? Is it Wednesday's jealousy/possessiveness that wants Enid to be all hers, especially after getting divorced and realizing that she can't let this one, this special good kind and loving someone slip through her fingers? Is it enid who finds herself imagining being a family with wednesday and the kids? Does enid sometimes stay over at Wednesday's place and wake up early to make them breakfast, including belle and oleander? Does Wednesday visit enid during her lunch break because she misses her and just wants to spend some time together? The kids would be apprehensive about the relationship at first, but after seeing how happy their mom is, would they be more open to accepting that enid may eventually join their little family? Enid would never try to force herself on them but once they were open to it, how would she bond with the kids? Does Wednesday's heart skip a beat when she notices Enid is trying to be involved with and genuinely cares about her children rather than dismiss them like most people would?

the motherfucker au is just crack mate, so idk what to tell you 😭

honestly, it takes like a week of regular sleeping together before wenclair was like "i like this intimacy, i like you, lets make this something more" and wabam, now they're dating and keeping their hands off each other to truly enjoy each other's company outside of the bed

enid was the one who made the first move because damn, wednesday is gorgeous and waking up with her is definitely something the professor would enjoy more if it lasted for longer than a day

i dont think wednesday would be jealous bc professor enid is lowkey tired and stressed to even dress well -idt she has enough effort to even date other people too, so its definitely more on how wednesday doesn't want to waste this opportunity to be treated right

enid doesn't know what to do with kids but honestly, the lil shits are growing on her. Sure they're troublemakers in a way that they disrupt the class and dont pass shit on time but she genuinely enjoys helping people out and while they're bastards (affectionate) she doesn't mind teaching them outside of class hours

so yes, during weekends when the relationships get alot more serious, enid pops in at wednesday's house with breakfast. The mother will stare at the extra food and not ask, its pretty obvious who it is for tho.

The children will skip down the stairs long since enid is gone and enjoy the food, wondering where its from. It never fails to make wednesday smile against her drink when she mentions that its from her girlfriend

"GIRLFRIEND?" they'd shout and so they get overprotective. "are you sure!? what if she takes advantage of you??" think of this as pre reveal, so they definitely don't know that its their teacher

wednesday definitely visits enid at work one day and it makes the children damn distraught because their teacher is dating their mother.. omygod, does that mean they have to play nice now?? oh dear log, why?!

but yeah belladonna warms up to enid pretty easily but oleander is ready to be a passive aggressive son because his donor didn't treat his mother right, who's to say enid wouldn't be the same? cliche son stepping in to be the man in the house bc his dad couldn't do it etc etc

its alright tho, they all warm up to each other eventually and enid knows that this is an awkward situation over all so she keeps her distance to make sure they aren't uncomfy. She will show that she cares though, but thats just because thats how she is as a person

wednesday takes that pretty well (she's screaming without the s)

[florenceisfalling]

ok now i’m curious since u said what jackie’s anger is like,,,, what are the others like when they’re angry?

hi im clearing out old asks :) this is from marvin's birthday in 2020!

when marvin's angry things get nasty. definitely the type to drag you to filth and threaten you so sharply you can't even get a word in. if he decides to retaliate beyond words its often more about intimidation, regret or calculation than necessarily brutality, which is how you get things like him blinding anti temporarily or the times he's put superglue in the shampoo bottles of one of his friends' exes.

when henrik's angry... for such a smart man, he can be a little immature. if he's tired of arguing he'll just shut it down by calling whoever a "stupid cunt" over and over until they fuck off. he is not above physical violence, especially not after the nine months. he gets a little explosive but usually directs it towards breaking a physical item rather than anything that will hurt him or someone else. if he's angry with someone he loves, though, he goes passive aggressive and shit instead. very "oh yeah sure its my fault. okay." type beat. and doesn't speak to you for a couple days until youre all sad waiting for him to come back

chase's anger results in him dredging up old shit he didnt let go of, like mentioning something stacy did months ago when she starts arguing about something he did today. he also often has the problem of pretending hes not mad even though its Really Obvious and then doing something stupid instead like drinking etc etc

jameson is intensely petty and will just stare you down while you argue with him until you feel like an idiot for even trying. he'll only ramble angrily - oft too fast for anyone to even read his signs - after he's made you feel like an idiot for raising your voice at him, via rolling his eyes and acting like he doesn't care or like you are a total dumbass and he can't be bothered.

and anti's anger rarely spares him or anyone else of violence. somebody's getting hurt to pay for that rage, and he's got quite the voice and strength to do it. when he can't hurt the one who caused it, whether for love or for just plain inability, he typically ends up taking it out on himself or a stranger. when he's not immediately losing his shit he often will go fuck around with fentanyl or play the drums. thats on his better days!

sorry that i mainly went for argument/etc scenarios and not just general frustrations or whatever but yeah

[fayfaygoes]

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Every time I try to verbally stand up and fire back, I have to just accept a twisted version that will be added to the vent rambling, making me out to be the one to instigate it, and there's no coming back.

If i call out Childs inexcusable mannerless behavior and insist on decipline it would be met with excuses and then venting frustration on kid by beating the shit out of them , not allowing me to protect and telling them that what i wanted and i am happy now, thats how much i hate them & thats what they grow up with.

if I try to do something theres 100 critisism of how i can't do things right , then if i stopped bothering then its how i never did anything.

if I defend myself against not helping out allegation and stating how i do such things despite it gives me physical inconveniences then its me "helping a bit for few days then lashing out ten-fold"

I have to be expected to sit through countless words that indicate my worthlessness, and the "reality" is sign of how the God I believe in detests me and I deserve nothing but sorrow and pain in life.

But if I fire back and say the same could be said about their constant illness being a sign to show "see how that sounds." Now it will be, "I rejoice at their suffering; they can't say anything lest I lash out and curse their health." That's a new line. Can you defend yourself and correct yourself every time ,when the clear signs show you that you won't win?

I can mind my own business but if i hear voice & i doubt someone is now talking about me like I am some abuser perpetrator then i would be correct .

my flaw is not being doormat and defending myself , my fault is talking back against the claim that i don't deserve anything in life, my fault is being affected instead of encouraged despite not hearing anything encouraging but insults and degradation and expecting it does that trick, no it doesn't , I am sensitive .

if reverse birth was a thing i would have taken it ,i say this the most nonchalant way . But unfortunately its not the case.

After so many secret final sleeping attempts that failed, my fault is starting to go about my day thinking I amount to anything since I have a lifespan to spend against the claim that I don't.

Its exhausting , yet people who are closest to your reach does this the most . I sometimes question my sanity of whether I do the right or not , I actually don't know . I doubt my memory of whether i saw or percieved things right , defending your voice against multiple saying same thing is exhausting

all I know that a twisted version of event remains and brought up as canon and it slowly turns to reality , quiet person can't outyap the yapper .

i am tired.

[field-reblogs]

A list of things my friends and I have said while completely conscious and sober

“Thank you for the cookie. I’m sorry for reading your porn. I swear I didn’t even get to the porn.” - Carrion beetle

“I have nothing to lose - except my virginity.” - Otter

“Do you wanna try one of my balls?” / “They’re so big!” - Me, Otter

“I would be such a good Sirius black cosplayer. I’m a furry too!” - Otter

“You’re genetically predisposed to being a discord kitten.” - Bones

“New stim unlocked - aneurysm.” - Bones

“I'm going to default dance on the devil.” - Bones

“I can't get strep from your pussy.” - Lemon Bar

“That’s my favorite use for you.” - Me

“Otter, can I get a quick list of your kinks?” - Me

“I will free your goop.” - Ash

“EGREGIOUSLY LONG????????” - Otter

“Imagine serving God instead of serving cunt.” - Otter

“We’re good!” / “But she literally had a panic attack!” - people in a neighbor’s room

“Girl dinner but it’s just my girlfriend eating me out.” - Me

“If I eat Chappel Roan glitter does that mean she’s inside me?” / “If you eat Chappel Roan glitter you turn into a fag.” - Otter, Me

“You look like a sock.” - Carrion beetle

“Piss in the pumpkins.” - Bones

“I think haunted houses are where theater kids go to die.” - Otter

“I've slept with you more than I've slept with any of my other friends. Figura - well, literally too.” - Me

*Otter plays single chord* “IS THAT CAVETOWN?” - Me

“You can’t copyright MIGRATION!” - Otter

“I want to be evil every time I eat shrimp. I love shrimp and I love being evil.” - Me

“Do you guys have a VIBRATOR in there?” - Otter

“I think I just gave myself a lobotomy.” - Otter

“Is he scared? Why is he scared? OH MY GOD, DID HE JUST TAKE A SHIT?” - Otter

“It's me. I'm the catholic saint of pussy.” - Me

“Respectfully, I could gaze at a woman all day.” - Me

“If you're going to be stupid, at least be smart about it.” - Otter

“What if I drop dead, are you going to congratulate me for that?” - Otter

“Be very relevant.” - French professor

“She ain't got a vaginal to sex!” - Me

“I think Nana would allow a domesticated deer on her land.” - Star

(after making out with me) “I think there's a hair in my mouth.” / “Thats why they call me Harrisen.” - Star, Me

“Do you want to munch on my blackheads?” - Me

“I'm not delulu, I'm just silly.” - Me

“Let it melt in your mouth.” - Best RA

“I might be a furry but I don't need a veterinarian.” - Otter

“You're gonna run out of ass money.” - Otter

“I'm this generation's David Tennant.” - Otter

“Bite it off like a big girl.” - Me

“I bit Jesus's head off! :D” - Otter

“I need to cleanse my mouth of the nose Jesus.” -  Carrion beetle

“That's some Mommy shit.” - Me

“This one is for the monster fuckers, I can already tell.” - Me

“Oh great, she's alive! Yeah, she can rail me. Disrespectfully.” - Me

“My heart beats when I see him.” / “Well gee, I sure hope so. Otherwise you'd be dead.” - Best RA, Bones

“You were PONDERING for an HOUR?” - rando in food court

“Not everyone has a herd of disposable two-year-olds.” - Me

“You have the power to do that, tranny.” - Me

“Who needs a boyfriend when you have a giant fuggler?... sorry, Big Fugg.” - Carrion beetle

“Keep your knees outta my pussy.” - Me

“You wanna use my boobs like stress balls?” - Me

“I don't know what you want me to do. I'm a koala.” -Carrion beetle

“I can't explain why I like the taste of flesh, I just know that I do.” - Me

“I hate you, whore. Get on Roblox.” - Little Sis

“Is this little lesbian calling me a fag?” - Bones

“...You have my playlist??” - Spider

“I VOUL3NG3ET” - Me

“Ma'am, you do not urinate.” - Me

“Socially unique.” - Me

“Shit for the stars, yo.” - Bones

“No substances just fuckd.” - Me

“I shit a pineapple.” - Carrion beetle

“I have cell of brain.” / “I think you mean cellophane.” - Me, Otter

“Essing my kay.” - Otter

“Its clipping through my bones.” - Carrion beetle

“No ass, just bitch.” - Otter

“Someone unionize me.” - Carrion beetle

[pret-boy]

I'll just answer these straight up because NOBODY LIKES ME!

1. Anywhere with my bf is great but I would love an arcade date. I wanna beat his ass at games. Or get my ass beat. Either way it's fun.

2. I just listen to mentally ill Vocaloid producers and Japanese twinks given musical talent please don't ask me anything like this again.

3. Being accepted unconditionally.

4. Taken I love my boytoy malewife husband I keep him in a small enclosure.

5. Many because I'm very very arospec and I "crush" on people for like 3 hours max and move on. So it's like a fun movie experience to me. If we're talking crushes that lasted at least a week that'd be like... six as far as I remember. People I've dated included.

6. People who are the opposite of me. I like women who are cool and collected and don't fuck with me (and older ideally) and men who are sad wet cats and would die if I looked at someone else. I've only dated the latter though. But generally I also really like people who have a darker aesthetic (regardless of personality) because I have a cutesy aesthetic and visually those are fucking awesome together.

7. Extremely. I speedrun crushes. I will crush on someone 30 minutes into knowing them (happened with my ex btw) and lose the crush the next day. I don't even know if they count as crushes they're like just a fun little thing to spice up an otherwise boring day for me.

8. I honestly don't care. I'd like something wholesome and fluffy though, like festive movies. Christmas movies yay!

9. Sunflowers and lilies.

10. Neither you nor I know. No one does. Divine inspiration strikes me at random. I don't know what a musical note even is but I composed and played a short tune for my ex on our anniversary out of fucking NOWHERE because I wanted to surprise him.

11. Idk.

12. Anything and everything really but giving I'm more of a quality time and words of affirmation person (with acts of service on the side), receiving I like quality time too.

13. My bf's been calling me "darling" lately and it really melts me like fucking butter. So cute.

14. No.

15. Not at the moment actually. I've been busy so I haven't gotten into any new media and my old fictional crushes fizzled out. Does my bf's oc count? I'm obsessed with them.

16. Both are good I'm not picky. If I had to pick, quiet. It's cuter. Yeah boy quiet down. I like men who know their place and shut the fuck up. I really liked this guy in my class who sat next to me and this other girl and we would yap the whole time while he sat there with his knees pressed together and hands folded in his lap like a good little Victorian maiden, not even uttering a single word. Like yep thats a good man right there. Keep that up.

17. Every man I relate to is bisexual. Because I said so.

18. My boyfriend. Pizza.

19. Can't let the hoes know my music taste lest I scare them.

20. Idk. I get a lot. I guess my boyfriend saying I'm scary and he finds it hot is the best recent one.

21. ALL WHEN YOU'RE MY BOYFRIEND BECAUSE HE'S CUTE AS HELL!!!! But in general I love cheek kisses. I'm a serial cheek kisser. Toxic masculinity be damned my boy (me) can kiss his friends on their cheeks and hold them affectionately.

22. Back.

23. I won't say because it's an instant giveaway to who I am fr. I'm like the only man that insane about him.

24. NOTHING THAT BRINGS ME PLEASURE MAKES ME FEEL GUILT! I AM HEDONISTIC AND FREE!

25. I love PDA. Not hardcore making out in public or some shit but y'know.

26. Gently? Also with jokes and if I'm upset because of someone, hate on them and tell me you will hex them and they're ugly and doomed to die alone while I'm beautiful and a winner and god's favorite (all very true btw). I love envisioning my opps' downfalls.

27. PSYCHOLOGICAL TORTURE! PLAYFUL BULLYING! PUTTING MY BELOVEDS IN A CAGE! BEING INSANE! YAPPING ABOUT THEM 24/7! MAKING THEM SCARED! MAKING THEM CRY! WAITING FOR THEM TO COME BACK WHEN THEY'RE BUSY! MAKING TIME FOR THEM! SENDING THEM THINGS THAT REMIND ME OF THEM! TELLING THEM ABOUT MY FATHER (I FUCKING HATE MY FATHER)! And of course comforting them and making them feel safe. Also beating the shit out of my loved one's enemies (for real) and praying on their misery. I have a lot of loving sadism in my heart but also I'm a sweetheart angel who loves people unconditionally and doesn't know what the word grudge means. Unless you're mean to my loved ones then I'll fucking kill you.

28. Both. Whatever my bf wanna be I'll be the opposite I'm a very accomodating and flexible man.

29. I love sad wet cat pathetic loser men so much I wish they were real.

mlm ask game!

1. ideal date location?

2. favorite mlm song?

3. what makes you feel loved?

4. are you single or taken?

5. how many crushes have you had?

6. what's your type?

7. do you develop crushes quickly?

8. best show or movie for a date night at home?

9. what are your favorite flowers?

10. what would you give as a gift on an anniversary?

11. what's your favorite album?

12. what's your love language?

13. what are some pet names that make you blush?

14. do you read fanfiction?

15. any fictional crushes?

16. loud boys or quiet boys?

17. any characters you headcanon as mlm?

18. what's your comfort food?

19. last song you listened to?

20. best compliment you ever received?

21. kiss on the lips, cheek or forehead?

22. scalp massage or back massage?

23. any celebrity crushes?

24. what's your guilty pleasure?

25. do you like PDA?

26. how do you prefer to be comforted?

27. favorite way to express affection?

28. big spoon or little spoon?

29. freebie! ask or prompt to share something random

[messofmoss]

friday, june 21, 2024

7:59am

jesus christ. julia just greeted me like this and my heart literally skipped a beat. UGH. but i know it means nothing. but it's been so long since she's said it. fuck fuck fuck i feel so stupid that i'm like literally physically reacting to her still. i was trying to move on. but like just one word has me feeling like today is going to be a good day then. but i hate myself too because why why why am i still so affected by her

8:05am

lmao i listen to the macarena when i'm sad and driving and need to fix my mood a bit. i was sitting on the toilet stressed about julia and then my mind started playing the macarena and i'm just sitting here on the toilet dancing in silence. i did it the first time and i was also thinking wow i'm dumb. but then i couldn't stop. did it a second time. almost did it a third time lol

8:12am

just looking at pictures she's sent me. some from the taylor swift concert she went to with cris. cris is pretty. my mind: she doesn't give a shit about you. she only cares about her. cris is the one that matters, not you. you're just filler. that's all you'll ever be to her. to anyone. why can't you be someone valuable? someone people wouldn't want to lose? why am i so disposable?

1:25pm

when she got home from work, she told me she was going to try to nap. so i said sweet dreams. turns out she just didn't want to talk to me and now apparently she's going to a concert tonight with diego (a guy who wants her that she has kissed before). love love love that. thats why she called me baby earlier. she's always more loving when she's with other people. like she's just trying to make sure i stay on the hook. and it fucking works. i hate myself.

[fighting-these-demons]

Bucch*g*ri Livebloging Ep 5

Ivy soulcaliber runs an illegal factory on the side???

Hmmmm they're mentioning the gang war. Are they all taking pipes to beat them with? They had like 2 days and the whole time they were planning all this could they not have done this earlier???

MATAKARAAAAAA!!!!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖 He's so awesome! Save the day darling!

Huh. When he's standing normal he sort of looks like Abel Nightroad.

its a sshame he's garbage. I wonder if the way that he uses English is charming or annoying to Japanese audiences?

AJ???????

Oh shit WHY IS HE NAKED AND HAPPY ABOUT IT WHAT THE FUCK????? A PINK CROWN?????

Oh damn. Matakara is about to Loose His Mind! 😨 He's like "I've done everything right. What the fuck is happening here??? This guy ain't shit. Why is Arajin so happy to be here???? Is this guy his type????"

Matakara I'm always rooting for you but if you could turn your head slightly to the left I promise you'll find 2 guys that are CRAZY about you! They're cute too!!!

"Playing king's orders."???????? WHAT DI YOU MEAN?????

GENIE ain't hearing any if this shit. He's side eyeing him so hard like "dude you're enjoying this shit too much"

Arajin brings nothing but shame on Team Sigma.

Good

How is he not the least bit embarrassed????? Thats a whole room full of guys. Damn Ivy Soulcalibur looks so pleased. Just eyeing him.

Another one bites the dust

WAIT. nah there's no way. They wouldn't do a Helen of Troy with this storyline because that would make no sense.

" Are you friends? " "No its not like that at all! "

😨😱💔

MATAKARAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

YOU DESERVE BETTER!!!!!!

DUMP HIM!!!!!! I DONT CARE THAT IT WAS ONE SIDED!!! JUST FORGET THIS LOSER AUGH!!!!

ARAJIN!!!!!!!!!

YOU SHUT YOUR WORTHLESS MOUTH BEFORE YOU BREAK HIS BEAUTIFUL HEART

you kknow I respect that Ivy Soulcalibur has a strict dress code for his gang. They look great in the background and he instantly stands out among them.

Diva behavior. Love that for him.

😱😨

NO MATAKARA!!!!!!!

Oh he has a thing for or maybe beef with Matakara's older brother possibly.

Man wouldn't it be funny and infuriating if someone else calling Matakara "Good Boy" is what finally triggers Arajin finally standing up for Matakara?

KENICHIRO MY BELOVED!!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖

Begging them to give me even a crumb of Butler/Teacher. Just a crumb please! 😭

Hmmmm. Matakara is strong and flexible.

Can't he at least get his arms in front of him?

*sigh* Arajin you've got a long climb to decency and less than 10 episodes. You better get to it. 🙄😒

At least he's helping him

LMAO THE TWO QUESTIONS I KNEW HE'D ASK

Lmao so he IS the only character responding to Arajins insane virginity yells. I called it!

Oh no. 😨

Oh Thank God. Wait he has his own club and idol group? He must be yakuza. No way he has the money for this as a high schooler.

UH OH

Well. We've got more to the flashback

A crumbling bomb shelter. What a great place for a fight!

Arajin run. Run now. Quickly.

Wait wait wait. We STILL don't have an explanation about why Arajin was naked????

There must be a cultural context clue to that king command game or something that I just didn't pick up on.

MATAKARA!!!!!!!! 💖💖💖💖

😫😭💖

WE'RE ALL DELUSIONAL EVERY NOW AND THEN. HE NEEDS THIS DREAM TO GET HIM THROUGH EVERY DAY OF HELL AND I SUPPORT HIM!!!! I JUST WISH IT WAS ANYONE ELSE!!!!

🤦‍♀️

She needs help, but I respect the very much fictional hustle. I'm sick to my stomach but if it were literally any other guy in the crowd then I'd be cheering her on so.

HERE WE GO

🤦‍♀️

At least him doing this makes sense because genies long lost rival lover is wholesale possessing him.

I'm not a fan of this type but damn does he play it well! Suave as hell! 🎉🎉🎉👏👏👏👍👍👍

WHSISJSJSSJSU HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF AN INESCAPABLE PROPOSAL/ROMANTIC GESTURE???

This is beautifully cathartic. 10/10

Oh NOW we get the explanation lol. Amazing. He seems to know that he can't trust this clearly duplicitous man though si that's good.

Poor Genie.

Thanks Incest Ingenue! You've put him back on a path. Is it a good path? I dunno. But it's certainly a path.

I know too many anime tropes honestly. There's another one for Veef with one of the other gangs heads. It was Kenichiro after all! And I bet it's related to Matakara's brother.

Hmmmm interesting. If he does thay often you'd assume there'd be preexisting scarring.

😨😬

That sounds rapey as all hell. Comparing stopping at noting -even murder- to get revenge and get kenichiro and comparing it to Arajin losing his virginity. Sounds like he wants to rape Arajin or arrange a kidnapping or drugging to help Arajin rape someone else.

KENICHIRO!!!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

Uhg. Of course he don't like you bitch you play dirty with weapons when it goes against the creed of the group like????? Your crush and devotion don't mean shit if you fold to suit yourself whenever. 🤷‍♀️

No wonder they dumped ur ass.

Oooooooh 2nd story no guard rail high stakes fight!!!!!!!

I don't think I'll ever see his beautiful eyes but I headcanon them as a lovely shade of lilac. 💜

DAMN EVERYONE HERE HAS A STRAIGHT HUY HALL PASS FOR THIS MAN

I would too if I was a guy I get it.

TEAL TERROR SAVES THE DAY!!!!! GO DARLING GO!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💙💙💙💙💙

Ah yep. Here comes the rape suggestion.

Hmmmm I wonder if it's the rape suggestion with the hand gripping his shoulder from behind with enough force to hold him in place while his own hands are between his asscheeks assumedly against his asshole and it all suddenly overwhelms him?

Like

Or if it's his heart pulling a Grinch and growing 3 sizes this day?

GENIE is noticing too.

LMAO THE CLOSEUP ON HIS HANDS IN HIS OWN ASS

🤣

Ivy Soulcalibur you're gay as the day is long you're so full of shit

HIS HEART GREW 3 SIZES IN RAGE GOOD FOR HIM

Yep blue genie is possessing him for sure. I wouldn't be surprised if it's a 24/7 shared consciousness thing. Clearly whatever they've got going is working for them.

BATEFOOT????? IN THE BOMB SHELTER RUINS???? EVEN GIANTS SUCCUMB TO DIRTY NEEDLES BABE NOOOOOOO

😭

MATAKARA AND TEAL TERROR!!!!

Here he comes! Arajin!!!!

Why do they still want to fight???

JAVASCRIPT AND PINK PETALS END!!! 💖💙💖💙💖💙

[kledface]

One of the harder things I've been trying to do is learn how to not just accept myself, but love myself. If you know me, and my past, im sure you can understand that this isn't an easy thing for me. I've lived surrounded by hateful people who have a habit of seeing the bad in everything and are also rather manipulative. This means i don't have a great sense of, not necessarily right and wrong, but truth and lies, and that i also see all the bad in me. Mom has made some growth, but that doesn't means she's perfect, and some days i don't know which version of her im talking to until she starts heavily suggesting im a demon again or starts rambling about reptilians. These are both actually rather intense triggers for me, and im not proud of it, but just starting to thing about the reptilians is starting to make me panicky, and part of my journey is learning to respect myself for what brings me shame.

I am a man who has lived an uneasy life. I don't have a strong sense of trust in certain matters. I tend to have issues relenting control, which is a serious problem i've been working on. I have a number of unusual fears and beliefs. Some things in my life have been genuinely traumatizing where no one would expect trauma should be able to be formed. When was the last time you heard of someone who had emotional flashbacks because someone accused obama of being an evil alien? I have an unusual set of things which i can and cannot stand. I can't take a compliment because they always feel backhanded or ingenuine and gifts make me feel in debt to the giver, but feel free to beat the shit out of me i genuinely don't care. As my journey involves learning to respect these differences, it means not beating myself up when i find myself unable to match others. It means stepping outside of myself and hearing the negative voices and correcting them, and talking to myself like i would a close friend; no, i am not a failure because someone calling me pussy makes me want to cry when any other vile shit just makes me laugh. You've seen this specific word used in a way hat was specifically designed to hurt you for the ways you arent like others. Your pain is valid, and instead of beating yourself up over that which you can't control, why don't we learn to make this easier to deal with? You too are allowed to feel this pain. No, you do not need to degrade yourself for forgetting so ething youve known your whole life again. You know you have these memory issues, and you're still living a mostly capable life in spite of this, and thats something to take pride in; others in your situation may not be able to. We should honor them for their capabilities just the same as we should yours. Treating myself this way has provided me the ability to recontextualize my own thoughts, and while correcting the negativity is a forever work in progress, it does get easier with time.

Along with this, learning patience with myself is also a tough task. Being raised with harsh and unforgiving critics, i am a perfectionist, which means i struggle to forgive myself when i mess up and may give up entirely out of sadness and frustration. Getting over this involves a lot of learning to recognize that failure, too, is a part of learning, and that not everything thats not a success is a failure. These two terms are as subjective as good and evil in many cases, and while perfection is unattainable, the ability to recognize my attempts as flawed but workable isn't. Again, speaking to myself as i would another is key here. Its okay that you weren't able to get this leg right on the first try. Progress can't happen without movement and movement can't happen without time. Your imperfections do not mean failure, they just mean opportunity for another attempt, and with every error we can observe why we don't like it and what we can do to make it closer to our goals.

And one of the final things that has been difficult for me is learning to let go. I don't mean in grudges, i mean in the things that i hate about myself. This has been the hardest part so far, because it requires an intense breakdown of myself and all the things which make me, me, amd all the things that make me unhappy about that. Learning to let go of these things is like trying to let go of a jagged rock on a cliffs edge, because these things are, in fact, fundamental to my being, and to eliminate them would be to destroy a part of myself, but on the contrary, hating them is only hurting me, like acid in a vile, it will erode over time. Acknowledging the things i dislike and not necessarily learning to love them, but learning not to hate them, is the first step. An example of this; i hate my weight. I like to say i don't to try and help me overcome this, because really, i know im not getting rid of my belly, but it does make me unhappy. Breaking down why involves a lot of elf reflection. Why do i hate my weight? And a question like this can be heavily multi-faceted. I hate my weight because mom taught me that being fat is painful. I hate my weight because society expects cookie cutter people and we live in a world full of too many deserts for a cookie cutter to fit everyone. I hate my weight because it goes to show the difficulties i have with my mental health in a multitude of ways; depression manifesting in the lack of energy to fix it– Addiction manifesting in the alcohol that i haven't dropped the weight from– A bit of both and my trauma in the things i eat to take my mind off memories i cant stand to see for the 50th time today– The guilt that cones with caving to my bad habits when i know better. How does obe correct this? First, i need to learn to eliminate the hate. Correct the hate. And that involves breaking down expectations of myself and understanding that prejudice against me is also prejudice against people i love. Yes, being overweight can be painful to some, but not everyone. Many people live happy, healthy, fulfilling lives while being at least as, if not moreso, overweight than me, because weight is not a direct correspondence to health, and not everyone can or is willing to drop the extra pounds. My struggles are part of what makes me human,and while my coping mechanisms may not be healthy and my mental problems do have a rather severe impact on my quality of life, i am actively learning how to improve these things, and my habits can be kicked so i may continue to enjoy the things i do without them consuming my life. Societal expectations of me aren't much i can do about, but how i handle them is, and in finding others like me and people who like others like me, im learning to recognize that my differences can still be appreciated and loved even when the majority of people don't necessarily agree with people like me for being me. There is much more than just my weight which i hate about myself, but this is my example right now. In time, i wish to learn more than just not hating myself for my differences, but also tolerating and even loving myself for them. The first step is always the hardest though, ad so means letting go; of hatred.

I am cringe. I am different. I am in pain. But i am still me. I still deserve to be treated with respect. And in learning to respect, accept, and appreciate me for me, i am becoming a better person, and realizing a way to love more than ever before.

[hydrate-or-diedrate]

Where the hell were we

But first a quick flat color Kanaya doodle because I asked my friend to pick a troll. It's been like 3 billion years since I drew anything but blobby cartoon anatomy, I'm super out of practice lmaoooo

Also thank you this person because either would have absolutely not idea how to pose someone holding a chainsaw without them <33

Some day these doodles will end up on my actual art blog as well but for now I am Lazy™️

ANYWAY

Okay look glasses boy I'm pretty certain you did not "solve" pi

Thank you LU server, I keep reading Dirk as Dink

SIGNLESS

This signless(?) is so sweet and chill, I can't wait to meet them, too

They're a historian? Oh I love them. A child(?) after my own heart

AND THEY WRITE FANFIC AWWW

WOAH those sure are horns

Okay this text is starting to seem to apply something adjacent to a vague British accent

By which I mean they're using words like "bloody" and calling people "love" and etc etc so that's inchresting but also kinda weird

AND THEY DRAW? I love them so much and I haven't even met them, I can't wait for everyone to vaguely suggest something terrible about their story in the comments later agskdhhdj

Oh are they finally gonna explain the fuckin typing quirks?

Nope no they are not

Oh my gosh Roxy stop interfering in people's love livesssss

Jane he could always be some variety of bi or pan

These girls have their priorities all out of wack :/

Wow Dirk are you really just gonna drop the head off like you're leaving it at daycare?

Lmaoooo he's got a little parade behind him

I SPY FEFERIS ANCESTOR OMG NO WONDER THEY GOT VIOLENT SO FUCKIN QUICK

AJHD HI DKDH JAKE USING PESTERCHUM OR WHATEVER ITS CALLED IN THIS SESSION TO CENSOR THE ALIENS NIPPLE I CANT

Uh oh nap time

Vriska??? I spy vriska horns???

OH THATS HER ANCESTOR

Oh she's so cute

<??????? is right, Jake

Jake is turning this into a harem manga

I spy a brobot ripping it's own uranium heart out

LMAO Jane just got hard-core friendzoned

I spy a brobot beating its uranium heart to smithereens in pettiness?

Jane, Jake is basically coming out to you and all you can think about is your own damn crush >:/ (but also I am totally biased gimme the gays, I've barely even seen them interact yet I just want gay rep. Queer them into oblivion Hussie I deserve it)

HELL YEAH PROSPIT QUEEN KICK HIS ASS

ID VALL HER QUEEN AS IN THE SLANG BUT THATD BE REDUNDANT

Hello again Jaspersprite!

HELLO DERSITES PLEASE GO AWAY

h-hewwooo?

OH FUCK OH SHIT OH PISS OH HELL OH FUCK

Another UU? Wtf? Also oo black text thats new

A session with only 2 players 👀 oho?

I AM NOT FEELING YOu, MOTHERFuCKER

I agree Cal is an uncanny grinning mockery and a bad omen and should be chopped up and burned fantastic talk

What the fuck is tumut

Here comes the meteorrrr woooo

BETTY CROCKER ARMAGEDDON?

Did they all get fuckin transported? Tf

I'll be honest this is one of the more confusing cutscenes so far simply because Dirk and Roxy seem to have been instantly transported years into the future which doesn't make sense at all but I'm sure will be explained later

Oh boy and of act 6 act 2

Day 13 of reading homestuck hoo boy

Before we read I just want you to know that I added some homestuck songs to my playlist and now pony chorale is haunting me. Every single time I've listened to music while walking between classes, without fail, pony chorale has come on before I reached my destination and I've had to hold back laughter.

WITHOUT

FAIL

Anyway Roxy is getting the TeaTM from Dirk's glasses

Is it am actual love triangle this time or a haha funniee one? Guess I'll find out but hoo boy teenage crush drama, I do not miss it

NOOOOOO FRIGGLISH

FUUUUUUUCK

"Rogue of Void" is certainly new

Hehe spoipage

Again, I am a simple women, put misspellings and funny words in front of me and I'm guaranteed to laugh its not that hard

I SEE TROLL KEYBOARD

Come on these trolls have gotta be our first trolls' paradox ancestors I wanna meet eeemmmmmm

Woag hi Roxy dreamself

I forgot that Cal is back :(

Well hello Squarewave!

bitch

Dave and Dirk truly got some of the worst modii in the story lmaoo

RAP OFF!!!!!!!

Woahhhh bye bye HB

[laneydays]

ghost boy headcanons

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billy showalter

adults and old people LOVE him. take him to meet ur parents, do it

but also hes the type to act way different with ppl his age than adults

kind of a smart mouth.... but in a cool kind of annoying way

twirls his hair a lot LMAO

crosses his arms when he's upset mad sad or annoyed

loves coca cola and root beer

adores dogs, his dog is his best friend

extremely supportive of queer identities even if he isnt queer himself

love language is acts of service

just loves to be helpful

feels bad if people do stuff for him though

griffin stagg

autistic 

is lowkey a menace sometimes

but also a sweetheart

he likes weird unexpected shit for someone his age

incredibly smart but doesn't rlly know that

great at art

doesnt curse a whole bunch but when he does he curses like a sailor and he does it good

doesnt know how to match his clothes for the life of him

wears bandanas to pull his hair back, gets made fun of and called a girl for it

everyone just wants to kiss and hold him like a little kid, he doesn't understand it

doesn't like when people baby him

love language is gift giving, probably picks up random shit to give to you

"here have this rock" "i got a pretty flower for you" "i found a cola bottle cap"

you keep them all

vance hopper

adhd probably 

pinball hyperfixation need i say more

he's actually pretty chill when hes not angry. if u don't bother him he's real quiet

aromatic and asexual. no he wouldn't be a player

but also is open to meeting someone, whether its platonic or romantic (remember aroace people can still date)

tries to act tough but hes just a big nerd tbh

smoked a cig once. never again, hated it

gets very mad at people when they make fun of his choker, he gets embarrassed 

acts homophobic but he really doesnt care

would probably beat someone up if they made fun of a queer kid

that doesnt stop him from saying "thats gay" as a (joking) insult however

doesn't really have a specific love language, just anything to show you care he appreciates it quietly

not big on physical touch but he doesn't mind it 

collects vinyls

wears a looot of denim

finney blake

also autistic

space special interest

kind of good at drawing

literally wouldn't hurt a fly

his jokes are so unfunny that its funny

sounds like an angel when he laughs and looks like one when he smiles

and its hard to get a smile out of him

carries that little spaceship with him everywhere, freaks out if he can't find it

cant think of anything else for him

doesn't have a specific love language either, just anything to show that u care

bruce yamada

bro is not as good in school as everyone thinks he is

but tries very hard and does his best

really loves history

i feel like this is obvious but he collects baseball cards

flexes them on you every time you come to his house and it gets a little annoying 

is the nice guy of the friend group

probably the corniest person ever

is pretty funny but when he tries to be funny it doesn't work

love language is quality time definitely

also physical touch, just the little things though like touching shoulders or brushing fingers

robin arellano

wears his bandana literally every day and it smells so bad

says its to keep the hair out of his face

bro is gorgeous without it

his wardrobe is 70% sleeveless shirts

a huge showoff and a sucker for praise

laughs at potty jokes every single time

his humor is fake flirting

very protective but he isn't scary at all

fucks up the school lunch like its his last meal

probably complains about it though

can talk to literally anyone and everyone, its really nice

he's.... not great in school but he tries to be nice to the teachers

passes notes in class 24/7 and he gets in trouble so much for it

canon movie fanatic, loves watching them even if they suck

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